Happy New Year!

Wishing Everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR! I guess this will be my last post this year. I am taking a new year resolution to be more regular next year. Hope to see y'all more frequently.... Seeyaa.. Have a great time and stay good...

Deep Blue

I have been feeling blue recently. The last few days in particular. There is something about the end of a year that tugs at my heart. It is the time to be with your near and dear ones. Being away from everyone is having a kind of negative effect on me. Despite all the claims of the world becoming a global village, I am finding out that nothing is a substitute for the physical touch. There is something therapeutic about that touch. Nothing can beat that physical proximity. Another reason I guess I am feeling so blue is the shocking news I heard a few days back, about the demise of one of my batch mates during my graduate studies in Wisconsin. It was totally unexpected. He died of cardiac arrest. We used to smoke and drink a lot during those days and there were a lot of occasions when we shared a drink or a joint at the Memorial Union. The more I think about it, the more I feel that I would have ended up in the same position had I remained in US. When I came back to India I cut back a lot on my substance abuse. And now I am almost clean. Not that I was an alcoholic or a chain-smoker. But I had my share of them. A lot of credit also goes to my friend who put a stop to all that. I wouldn't claim that I have a healthy life style now. But this news somewhat sobered me up. I was not thinking of it overtly. Maybe I have not yet accepted it completely. But it is always there just beyond the grasp of my conscious brain. Which is why I am writing this post. I don't know if I will submit it. Since it seems to be growing somewhat personal in nature. But I think I need to let this out in some form and right now this seems to be the best way to do it.
Is it the dog-eat-dog competition to stay on top in this world which is causing all this? The tensions that we have to face in life is increasing over time. The race to earn more, own more, spend more, enjoy more... where is it leading us? Weighty questions... I am still searching for the answers. Maybe I will find it someday. And with it, the key to happiness. From what I have learned in life so far, the questions may be same for everyone, but, the answers, different. If the answers I find can help you, I will definitely post them here, once I find them.